Office Romance - I Don't Wanna But You Make Me Wanna...

*dreamy sigh*

As I leaned across the boardroom table to pick up the last file, I heard the door open and I could smell the heady mix of that cologne and musky him even before I saw him.

He entered the room,in all his masculine glory,filling the room so much with all his testosterone,I almost choked.

He smiled.

And my hand lost its ability to grasp(melted into useless liquid) and the file helplessly fluttered back on to the table.

Stupid hand...stupid me...

How does he do that?

Or did my thoughts of him magnet him?

I quickly looked away to pick up the discarded file and put myself back together. By the time I looked up,his strides had eaten up the distance between us and he was just barely three feet away. I didn't realise I'd held my breath until my chest began to burn. I made a desperate effort at subtly correcting this by gently sipping the air through my slightly parted lips but I didn't realise my face looked strained.

He gently said,'There's enough air in here for us both you know'.

Dang! The smartass!

Why can't he just repel me? Why do I have to dig him so much?!!!

I cautiously took two steps backwards.

'I have you alone now...all to myself...to do to you as I please'.

I'm sure my eyes popped out because he laughed and made gestures as though to return them into their sockets.

'I'm not going to bite you...well not just yet'.

My breathing doubled!

I stylishly moved further away,pretending to search for careless papers/folders still lying around the room.

'Why don't you want me?',he asked as he moved closer.

I stopped breathing again.

Why won't he just leave me alone?!!!

I fumbled around for something to hold on to and I remembered the folders&files in my hand. Splendid! Something to put some demarcation between us which he can't yank away(I hope!) with his confident stride and,maybe a lil weapon to wack him with if he tries to be too funny(hope my betraying limbs will cooperate). I held them high up against my chest,resting slightly beneath my chin.

He saw my move and chuckled softly but the earnestness didn't leave his eyes as he cocked his oh so beautiful head of locks to the left and waited for my answer.

'Well...(Why the hell are my lashes fluttering so much? And my words...!where are they? Oh how common sense deserts a body in the presence of this man!!!!)...I already told you in my reply',I managed to quip out.

'Well,I want to hear them from...(He paused and slid a lingering gaze to my full lips)...your lips'.

I swallowed audibly and backed up even more.

I sighed,looked everywhere else around the room but his face and started to speak when he said,'Do you like me?'.

My insides folded at this. Of course we both know I like him. A lot. Why then will I be reacting like this fool if I don't like him.

'Well...I do...I like you a lot...I want you even...(We both swallowed at this)...you're a nice guy...hell,you're amazing...especially with me. You make me feel like I have a rainbow circus going on on my inside. And this right here...this issssh we're talking about is the reason I keep my distance from guys'.

You go girl! I've got my voice back! ┐('⌣'┐) (┌'⌣')┌ ƪ(˘⌣˘)┐ ┌(˘.˘)ʃ

'Please break it down',he said.

'Most guys who ask me out,I have a ready-made answer for them because I just can't deal with the tug of emotions involved in 'The Chase'. I simply tell them that I have a man in my life and they back up. It's worked and I was having my jolly good time until you strode on to the scene. Gosh man! You make it so hard for a girl to lie to you. Have you seen the softness in your oh-so-masculine face? It just isn't supposed to be there. I couldn't just lie to you like the other guys. I simply told you the truth- that im not ready for a relationship right now and well,you just had to probe deeper and find out that its because my emotions are not so strong,they are like toddlers and I'm afraid I will be taken advantage of. We both know I'm a strong woman,I can hold my own every other way but when it comes to love and its ribbons of emotions,I'm just hopelessly helpless. I become weak,too weak when I commit emotions to a person and right now,I just want to keep off that turf and strengthen me in that area first.

And your persistence is what is killing me right now. Its chipping at my resolve,worsening my weakness. Its hard enough that I like you and I'm saying no to you,but your persistence...it breaks me more...it makes me cave in and I don't want to.'

My words had caught in my throat. Shoot! Now I'm going to cry to top this all up?! Just great!

He moved closer and every step made me ache a bit more...and oh! it was a painfully good ache.

'I want to kiss you',he said as he got closer. 'Can I?',he asked. Did he even listen to what I just said?! I struggled to croak out a 'No' but the son of a gun would not listen. I tried to back up even more but I bumped into a chair behind me.

'Can I?',he asked again.

My eye lids were so heavy right now,I could barely lift them and my stomach wall must have been lined heavily with pollen from the crazy flurry of butterflies going on down there.

'Well you are here already,so you might as well do what you wanna',I said.

He reached for my chin and as he raised my face to look into his,the folders&papers slid effortlessly out of my grasp like my chin had been the clamp holding them up. He hovered a little(trust him to be mischievous at such a time as this!) ...his lips almost grazing mine,waiting,gazing deep in my eyes and I let out a little moan of anticipation. With his eyes twinkling with mischief,he took me in the warm gulf of his beautiful lips and I sighed...a deep release of surrender to longing...

My! He tastes sooo good. And its been so long. I nipped softly at his inner-lower lips and he groaned. He pulled me closer and delved even deeper.

I broke the kiss...yes*sigh*...I had to. And the look in his eyes just mashed up all the mush in me all over again. He looked lost yet content and his eyes screamed silent questions at me.

I couldn't hold the gaze so I turned and moved towards the window. My jaws were quivering as I fought the tears I tried to hide. He saw it and was swiftly beside me,prodding with his eyes,his hands reaching for my chin again. 'Did I hurt you?',he asked with too much softness for me to bear. Oh I'm sure going to have a bawl today.

'I have to go',I managed to say as I shook my head and moved past him back to 'The Spot'.'I have to clear up this mess first'. He just nodded and stood watching as I bent to pick up the discarded papers,my skin running through all the temperature on the thermometer in those ten seconds.

With the folders and files arranged in my arms,I dashed out of the boardroom without a backward glance.

By Toyosi Temitope

Student Pulse Reporter